you.

HOW DUMB ARE YOU!? FOR FUCKS SAKE.

im mad at you. if your ever smart enough to look back at this id like to let you know i deleted my aim. you only come back when things get hard on you , or when there is nobody you wanna date in Illinois . i’ve forgiven you for two going after two of my best friends,leaving multiple times,hurting me like crazy, for fuck sake i always say it’s okay or it’s alright or what’s done is done HOW MANY FUCKING TIMES because you already have enough on your hands because i don’t want you to be upset because i don’t want you to be unhappy ever, and quiet frankly im probably an idiot for letting you back into my life whenever the fuck you want,but that isent fair to me, or to the people who actually give a damn if im in their life or not when you dont ,because im willing to drop everything just to be with you . i always put important people before me and that’s what ended up getting my in the hospital last year, and i promise myself i wouldent do that again, and then here i am again always end up letting you hurt me because your Alex and i know to you that might be just your name to you but that person is still my first love and the person i wont forget till the day i die….w.e sorry i actually give a damn about you. you never seem to take anything i say to heart Alex.sorry i keep mistaking you for the person i was love with,because that clearly you arent him since you treat me like a joke. you tell me you like me and less then a week later ” oh btw i might have a new girlfriend ” ……… yeah okay.